I’ve been avoiding saying the truth,
Because I know the truth will hurt.

I didn’t want it to go like this,
I wanted us to work.

But this doesn’t feel right,
When we talk we always fight.

I know I need to let go,
I just don’t know how to let you know.

It means that, yes, I can generally tell your mood from one message.

It means that, yes, I will want to figure out what’s bothering you.

It means that, yes, while you sit there and give me either one-word or direct short responses; I will still stay by you rather than just give up.

Being a boyfriend to me is much different from being your boyfriend. Because being your boy means that you are my girl and while I will make it through all of the hard times with you don’t think I won’t get annoyed at the fact that you won’t just tell me what’s bothering you. I mean I like being a detective and all that but really lol just say what’s on your mind.

I know, I know,

I’ve been told a thousand times before, “Take, it, slow”. Yet I just can’t do it, not completely at least. I mean it’s not like we’re going to wake up one day, run to the courthouse, get married, and not tell anyone until they’ve seen that we’re more serious about each other than they had imagined.

Although that is something we’ve talked about doing…

But, you know. Take it slow. Take it in stride and don’t miss a thing. Because in a relationship that’s this good there are memories that you want to cherish. 

Like those, “Oh so important, first’s”. The first time you saw her, the first time you heard her voice, the first time you saw her eyes light up and shine as bright as her smile, the first time you held her hand in your own, and then of course the first time you kissed…

What if that all happened on the same night though? What if you were suddenly thrown into an incredible romance that you thought was only reserved for the big screen? Would it still be possible to take it slow?

Could it be so wrong to throw yourself into it, so deeply and so intensely, to see if such a thing can truly take you on an incredible journey with a person who is so amazing that they just take your breath away every time you look into their eyes?!

Would you be able to take it slow, if you spent your nights together looking at rings and sharing things while laid out on the kitchen floor?

But we are taking it slow, as slow as we can go when the pace of our relationship has been set at a running speed.

We’ve shared in pain, and we were left with fear. Yet when were together it fades away and just holds us here.

Here, is where we are. Two people, standing with love. Not letting our heads fall down as we look to the stars above.

Because in those shimmering stars, those small balls of light; I see your eyes looking down to me and I know that you hope we just might…

Take it slow.

I’m not saying it’s uncommon to feel this strongly about someone, I’m just wanting to know that it’s really okay to do this time.

I’m falling. I don’t have a clue from what height I’ve jumped this time, but my dear, I am indeed falling at an incredible speed and I haven’t even hit terminal velocity yet.

What am I to do about this love I hold for you? You know it’s there. I’ve already told you this. But you could see it in my eyes, it’s not something you could miss. I’m just really excited to see where this takes us.

I think I’m learning where I get this “fast-passed romance” thing I do in relationships from. 

My Mom wants to bring my “girlfriend” with us for Christmas Vacation to the Bahamas.

I’m actually cool with it and the funny thing is that her, my girl, and I have talked about it, I just find it interesting to realize who I kind of got this optimism towards the future, regarding relationships, from. 

Can express herself, her soul, through her music. Taking her to a live show of her favorite group could make your understanding of her feel more complete as you gaze upon her dancing… Eyes closed… Movement coming from another dimension. Her dimension. You’re watching her walls crumble as she accepts you into this world of her making. You’ve been invited to fall in love.

You can see it in her eyes….

Follow the music.

I’m attracted to the interest someone has towards me. The desire to just want to walk with me to grab lunch, wanting to just sit and study in the same place that I am, not needing to have something to say yet still being able to find the conversation so wonderful.